No, i am not talking about the TV show lost. I am lost. Today when it was nearly knock off time, dear called. Told me that she has been called back to her HQ from NYP. She wanted to go takashima for moon cake testing. So, I waited for her to knock off. It turns out that her company’s shareholder is going to stop funding the company and that the company seems to be collapsing. She was retrenched. I guess the thought of losing my job has never really occurred to me before this. I mean, I did think about it before but so far, I have been lucky. Even during the peak of the economy crisis, I managed to get a new and higher paid job. But she’s happy, in a sense as she was very unhappy with her job and now she had a reason to find a new job. But that is not the main reason I felt lost.
I came home late tonight and log on to facebook, I saw a video that a friend posted. It was about the father and son team that ran Ironman. It was a music video of “redeemer”. It has been a while since I have given this much thought about Jesus and stuff. Let’s just say that I am not happy with how people make use of others to promote their own agenda. Does the Hyots’ even believe in god? But anyways, being me, I went to look up on the song and found out that it was by this singer, Nicole C. Mullen. I was listening to a few of her songs from when she first started out and then to her more recent songs. At first it was good all till I heard her recent song, brain wash. ( I know it might not be that recent but hey it is for me.) It did not sit well with me. I don’t mind christian pop songs but this song simply doesn’t sit well with me for some reason. It felt as if at the start she was singing because she loves god, but not, it gave me the feeling that she was singing because she loved the attention or money, anything but god. So why am I feeling lost because of this? Songs are things that makes me open up, makes me feel. But now, I don’t know if I will ever turn back to god. It just made me doubt even more.
O, and you know what? I was listening to the songs at youtube. I understand that companies like to make money and all that but some of Nicole’s songs were removed due to copyright issues. It just made me feel more disgusted.
Heh, just changed my phone. dumped iphone 4 and got myself a samsung galaxy s 2. battery life abit weak thou for that phone. but i guess the good thing is that the battery is replaceable. =D other than that… i just need to get used to the new android [...]